Make space for your dreams. That is what I’m doing this morning. Lysa Terkeurst, in her book, The Best Yes, encourages us to chase down our decisions. “Today’s choices become tomorrow’s circumstances,” she says. This was like a wake up call for me.
For a long time, there’s been this seed of a dream in my heart to write. Lately, I’ve realized my circumstances aren’t yielding the opportunity to make this dream a reality. It feels more like this dream has been suffocating there in the soil of my heart as I let other things grow all over it.
Many stressful storms have blown over my heart the last 3 years. A move, my son’s diagnosis with autism and everything after, have been important plants growing my character and changing my heart. As I was swept up in the huge demands of special needs parenting, I forgot about taking care of me. My dreams have been pushed deep inside by the pressing priorities of caring for a son who needs so much extra TLC, changing our diet and lifestyle, keeping up with 2 boys with huge hearts and even bigger personalities!
It’s a new year and it’s time to plant that seed of a dream. Even though it is scary.
While my older son was at school, I timidly signed my 3 year old up for a play time class this morning. And even more timidly dropped him off and came home to my empty house. I both ache with the absence of my boys and am also slightly giddy at the thought of 3 whole hours to myself!
Turning over the soil in my heart, I plant words like seeds. With each stroke of the keyboard I tap them down. What will grow?
I hope to keep this thing alive. Maybe I’ll see in tomorrow’s circumstances.